WALK THE WALK

Last Sunday I talked about a Forgiving Heart but that is all I did. I just talked! In other words, I talked the talk but I didn’t walk the walk. My Sunday posts are usually written for ME because I am needing help in an area. There are so many areas that I need help in that I should have plenty of things to talk about on Sundays.

Did you read my post that had the video with Beth Moore where she was talking about being at the airport? In the video, she told about having a conversation with the Lord. Actually, she talked about how she was telling the Lord that she didn’t want to do something. Of course, she eventually gave in and did what the Lord asked her to do and she was blessed by the decision.

I remember being just a little jealous that the Lord would talk to her and I had never “heard” the Lord speak to me. I am not that jealous anymore. On my way to work one morning last week I had a conversation with the Lord. HE was weighing on my heart about my post last Sunday. The conversation went something like this:

“Tania, isn’t there someone that you need to forgive?” I don’t “want” to forgive them, Lord. “Tania, didn’t you write about forgiveness on Sunday?” Yes, but I am not “ready” to forgive yet. “Tania, were you only pretending to do my will?” No, Lord. It is just I want them to “pay” for what it is they have done. “Tania, don’t you think they have already paid?” Yes, Lord, they have. But “I” didn’t make they pay. “Tania, are you trying to do my job?”  No, Lord. “Tania, do you want to be forgiven for your mistakes?”  Yes, of course, I do, Lord. “Tania, haven’t you made the same mistake over and over again?” Yes, Lord. “Tania, you HAVE to forgive!” But, I really don’t want to. And then there was silence. That was even worse than the words. I tried again, I really don’t want to. More silence. It finally dawned on me that I HAD to forgive. I HAD to say the words and I HAD to mean the words.

I am not sure that the Lord was actually “talking” to me but HE was using my thoughts to get His point across. I sat in the parking lot at work for a few minutes before I finally said the words, “I forgive.” Then I said a prayer for the person and went into work.

I am learning that forgiving is easier said than done but I am really trying. I know that the devil is still placing thoughts and situations in my way trying to make sure that I hold onto my anger. I am glad that I am now walking the walk and Beth Moore was right, He can be very bossy.

Have A Blessed Day!

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